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Read More »“Nice to meet you, How do you feel about IVF, Surrogates, Adoption?”
This past week I learned something. After four negative pregnancy tests and only one month left to try, I decided to talk to my hubs about IVF and having my eggs harvested to maybe have a surrogate one day. Turns out the hubs doesn’t believe in IVF or surrogacy. Hum. …
Read More »The Light at the End
You may or may not have noticed my absence the past couple of months. The fault is entirely my own, and to be honest it’s because I just couldn’t find the words. Ironic for a writer when words are what you depend on. But after every negative pregnancy test I became more …
Read More »The Great “What If?”
Something I have found lately since starting infertility treatments is that I am much more sensitive to people’s comments now. I completely understand that a lot of people don’t really think about what they say before they say it and of course a lot may not know our situation but …
Read More »Finish Line
I think when you face a chronic disease you always find yourself thinking about “The Finish Line”. When the fighting is over, when your done, and when everything is just finished. I feel like I am facing that now. As many of you know I have been trying Lupron shots. …
Read More »Standing Stronger
At the end of the year we all look back and reflect upon the year we are leaving behind. The good times we have had, the changes we have went through, and then the bad times and the things we will gladly leave behind. I can personally look back and …
Read More »Out of Control
One of the many battles I fight inside myself is control/perfection. I never really thought of myself as a perfectionists or control freak until my husband pointed out how upset I get when my hair doesn’t do what I want or the house isn’t just so or I burn something …
Read More »One More Round
You’re in a boxing ring. You’re throwing punch after punch. You’re winning. You feel that rush that for that moment you’re on top. Just when you think you’ve got your opponent beat, it comes around with a left hook that catches you off guard and completely off balance. Your neck …
Read More »After Happily Ever After
Do you ever wonder what happens after happily ever after? Maybe because I’m a writer I think beyond the end of the perfect story. Like what happened to Cinderella after she married Prince Charming? Where did the evil stepmother and step sisters go? Did they all make up? The questions …
Read More »Dependent
One of the things I’ve noticed in all that I’ve read about Endometriosis, whether it be a medical journal article or a blog from a fellow fighter, is the hard topic of a struggle for someone who lives in chronic pain, is the dependency that you develop of prescription pain …
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