The latest buzz on the internet is a new television show called Red Band Society. I’ve read a few reviews of the show that were written by chronically or terminally ill teens who had watched the pilot. Their reviews made me worried that chronic or terminally illnesses wouldn’t be portrayed properly. And while there were a few things that I disliked about how they portrayed life in the hospital – they did have some wonderful teaching moments and this show will hopefully raise awareness about children with terminal or chronic illnesses.
Let me start off with the positives. As someone who has been evaluated for a heart-lung transplant, I was pleased to see that they explained how difficult it is to get a heart transplant, and they talked about the fact that because the patient was on drugs would move her even further down the list. In the weeks coming, I hope they show all the tests and medications this patient will have to be on – and even possibly on an artificial heart while waiting for the transplant.
The message Leo gave as he handed out the Red Bands, that you are not alone was something that hit very close to home to me. When you are in the hospital, you do get to meet other patients and can bond with them. If you’re lucky, there is a camp out there for you to go to and meet other kids like you. Before I went to heart camp, I felt so alone in my health situation but meeting other kids, talking with them and getting strength from each other has helped me more than I could ever explain.
I loved the jokes that the kids would make about their own health. Emma’s comments to Jordi about his leg and all the things he needed to do before he got it off – it made me laugh and smile. I joke a lot about my illness to my friends, the healthy and non-healthy ones! Between us CHD kids, we make heart condition jokes all the time with one another. It helps us to deal with something so serious by being able to laugh at it. Gives our health just a little less control over us whenever we can laugh it off.
With that being said, there were a few parts of this show that I did not agree with. For one, Dash who has Cystic Fibrosis is need of a lung transplant but he isn’t even on oxygen! If you are at the point of needing a lung transplant so badly that you are hospitalized, you should be on oxygen 24/7 and possibly even pushed around in a wheelchair because even walking gets you exhausted. Emma who is anorexic who is not getting proper nutrients and could easily dehydrate doesn’t have a feeding tube or even an IV to help give her supplements.
I’ve been in and out of the hospital since I was born and I have met a lot of other patients while in there and I can guarantee you that none of my friends nor myself have ever worn stylish clothing like these kids did. You are so emotionally and physically exhausted that you have no energy to put on make up, let alone plan out stylish outfits. Pajamas and hospital gowns are not only the most comfortable to wear when you’re sick, they are the most practical for IV, drainage tubes, port, etc. access. And why do all of these kids look so full of energy? Pale cheeks, droopy eyes and a slow zombie-like walking pace is what real patients look like. We are not constantly running around throwing parties and sneaking in beer. In fact – that has never happened for me or any of my other chronically ill friends.
There are two messages that this show gives that I strongly disagree with. The first one is the message that there is freedom in a hospital. That is 100% false. There is absolutely no freedom when you are a patient in the hospital. You are told what you’re going to eat and when you’re going to eat it. Heck, you can’t even go to the bathroom without your nurse coming in to measure just how much you went! You are woken up ever 4-6 hours during the night for vital signs, whether you want to or not. Because you are a minor, you have no say in what procedures you have. The doctor says surgery, you get one. The doctor orders a blood draw and a MRI, you do it. When you want to take a shower, you have to make sure a nurse or a parent is in the room to help you with something that you used to be able to do all on your own. You don’t even have control over your own body and health.
The second message is that life doesn’t stop when you go into the hospital, it’s just beginning. That I disagree with completely. Life stops. Your life stops. Sure friends come to visit you, but once they leave – you’re left alone in an empty hospital bed while they get to go out and enjoy the world around them. You miss Holidays, birthday parties, school field trips and all the memories that would’ve come with getting to experience those things. You sit day in, day out, waiting to get better and hoping that someone from the “outside world” will come in to visit you and bring just a little taste of life to you. You scroll through Facebook, seeing all of your friends travel over the summer. You see photos of your cousins going to that concert you had planned to go to together. You read status updates about how amazing Homecoming was this year. And you missed all of it. When you finally get out of the hospital, you have so much to catch up on. Friends have moved in different directions and you’ve missed out on so much that it’s almost next to impossible to get caught up. You’re playing catch up from the moment you get out and no matter how hard you try – you can never get those weeks or months back nor can you ever share those memories with them because you weren’t there. So no, life doesn’t start when you go into a hospital. It screeches to a halt. Your life before you got into the hospital is on hold for you and you are missing out on so many things while you’re cooped up inside, just trying to stay alive.
I’m excited for this show because I do believe it can raise awareness about kids who are chronically and/or terminally ill. With that being said though, I really hope that if this show continues they interview and spend time with real life patients who have had transplants, had chemo, had eating disorders and have spent months in the hospital to help make this show more realistic. You don’t hook up with fellow patients, especially not in the so cliche supply closet. I’ve never met anyone in the hospital who has snuck out for a joy ride in a doctor’s car or snuck in beer. Now I get that you need to get viewers and some of these scenarios had humor in them, which I loved – but try not to go overboard with these parts of “hospital life” because those situations are not realistic. The last thing I want is for society to think it’s fun to be chronically/terminally ill, because it’s not. It’s terrifying. So please Red Band Society, I ask that you raise awareness in a way that will help give people a realistic look at what our lives are like. Please, don’t romanticize the fact that I am dying.