Since I was 13 years old, I have struggled with weight and body image issues. No matter how skinny I was I still felt fat. I couldn’t look in mirrors. I began starving myself and got down to a dangerous 99 pounds.
After a talk with my parents I put weight back on but the feelings of being fat and disgusting didn’t go away. A couple of years went by in which I would starve myself during the week, binge eat on the weekends, and spend all night Sunday crying about being a failure and that I would always be “fat”.
I hit bottom again when I managed to starve myself to 114 pounds at the age of 21 (I am 5’7″ so it was definitely too skinny). I finally decided to seek help and uncovered things about my past that I had been holding onto all these years and how they have caused my weight issues. Thanks to support from my family and especially my sister I have officially kicked my eating disorder!
I just want everyone to know that you are absolutely beautiful no matter your weight and should love yourself for who you are. If you are struggling with an eating disorder please do not wait to get help. You would be surprised at how willing to help your family and friends will be. Sometimes you have to try a couple different therapists before you find the right one, but it’s worth it. Don’t ever let what others think influence you, love yourself, and just be happy. Life is too short to let an eating disorder control you.
The informational content of this article is intended to convey a personal experience and, because every person’s experience is unique, should not be relied upon as a substitute for professional healthcare advice.
This story is intended to convey a personal experience and, because every person’s experience is unique, should not be relied upon as a substitute for professional healthcare advice.