At the age of 44 I had my first mammogram. The doctor called to say that I had to come back, so I waited until after Christmas and went alone. After the mammogram they did an ultrasound, then they placed a clip inside at a site that looked suspicious, I left there thinking this is not good!
Four days later my doctor called and said, “You have breast cancer! I am setting you up with a surgeon next week.” I never questioned “why me” or cried, at least not until my son found out accidentally through a text. He was terrified and was inconsolable, begging me not to die. I assured him that God was not ready for me yet and to lean on him for strength, just as I was doing. Believe me the surgery was not bad the first time, but when the margins were not clean we went back in and the drains were very uncomfortable.
I had stage 2 invasive ductal and lobular tumors with lymph node involvement . I had four rounds of chemo and six weeks of radiation. It was tough and took a lot out of me. I suffer from chemo brain, bone pain from neulasta shots, and anxiety. I am coping with it and I am on tamoxifen to suppress the estrogen as I am her2 positive.
I finished treatment two years ago today, and although the road ahead is untraveled I find that I want to laugh and smile more, I want to be with my family and friends, I want to build memories, and I want to enjoy life! There’s always going to be a few bad days where those fears creep in, but the good days outweigh them. If your feeling scared, anxious, or unsure, it’s okay ! We have all been there. Just know that it will get better, and just try to smile and lean on the people who love you! Join a support group, know that someday there will be a cure, and hope that no one will ever have to join our pink club! But until then stay strong and positive! God bless!
The informational content of this article is intended to convey a personal experience and, because every person’s experience is unique, should not be relied upon as a substitute for professional healthcare advice.
This story is intended to convey a personal experience and, because every person’s experience is unique, should not be relied upon as a substitute for professional healthcare advice.