I would like to tell you all about my battle with PCOS. First of all, I want to say this has completely been ruining my life for years. I’ve had battles with weight loss and irregular periods from the time I was 11 to 14, but that was because I was very inactive. At 13, I was 181 lbs. I know that’s sad for a 13-year-old, but as I became more active, I lost fifty pounds and went down to 132 lbs. I was that size for a while and loving it, but after a while, roughly a year ago, I witnessed terrible changes in my body– long hairs under my chin, a lot of hair on my stomach, and my period went away.
In a span of 3 months, I went from 142 to 232 pounds, and I truly feel like crap. I went from a size 9 in jeans and plenty of compliments, to people whispering, asking if am I pregnant. I’ve truly never had this much low self-esteem. I’ve never ever been this big. I won’t stop growing. I honestly don’t even feel pretty anymore, and I’m not saying weight defines you, but in the same sense, when you’re used to people telling you how pretty you are every time you see them to “damn she done got big as hell,” it kind of makes your confidence go down the drain. Honestly, I’ve never even had to put clothes on to look cute, and now that I’m a bigger size, it’s hard to dress the way I like to dress. People are still judgmental, and I try to keep my hair done and dress cute, yet still, there’s nothing positive to say other than, “She’s too big for that.”
I hate that this is happening to me. I’ve dropped down to eating once or twice a day, and still, I gain even more more weight. I finally lost three pounds after just about starving myself. I’m constantly in the doctor’s because of this weight gain. I have breathing problems at times, and they won’t go away I lose weight. I’m constantly walking on my feet, and still, nothing works.
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