It has been a while but I am back. I apologize for the lack of posts but the truth is I was in a yucky place and just could not dig deep enough to find the inspiration to show up and post. I apologize for that because this blog is my responsibility and I do take it seriously. When a lot of things happen at once you really need to fine tune your coping skills. It’s an actual job, something you must be diligent with. I failed in that task and my depression and pity party got the best of me. I hate being a Betty Buzzkill, its not who I am. Its part of who I am but only a small part and one I struggle to keep in check. When I get that way I find it a lot harder to make myself reach out to others, I don’t like to spread negativity. So in my feeble attempt at protecting all of you by way of isolation, I had let the blog take a back seat and for that I am truly sorry and will make sure it won’t happen again!
That being said, I decided to make this blog topic about INSPIRATION!
I am truly inspired by so many people. I often think that I am being selfish when I have a “woe is me” day. I do acknowledge that I am entitled to them because while what happens to me may not be as severe as what happens to the guy next to me, it IS still happening to me and it is big and important. However, I look at the kids suffering from cancer on the St. Jude’s Children’s Hospital commercials. They are so sick, and yet they have smiles on their faces and even though they are trapped within the confines of the hospital, and their disease, they still are able to find the simple joys of laughing, playing with toys and the comfort of their families. Their spiritual resilience is amazing and awe inspiring to say the least.
I look at our soldiers who come home wounded, having lost limbs but not their spirit and drive for a better quality of life. I am astounded. To have lost your leg and still run a marathon, for someone else’s charity no less! I even saw one amazing soldier who plays golf even though he lost both legs and an arm. To be able to dig deep enough, to let go of what you once were and embrace who you are now…
I am truly humbled by these people. They really put it into perspective for me. I struggle with who I was and who I am now. For the most part I do well but there are times when I stop and think “What the heck did I do to deserve this?” But then I reel myself back in, I stop looking at the negative and start looking at my blessings. I am blessed with an amazing Husband, fabulous Mother and wonderful dogs. I hate having EDS & RSD but because of these diseases I have met the most AMAZING and awe inspiring people. I have learned a lot about other people and myself through being sick, lessons that I would not have come by had I been “normal”. I have a fabulous support system whenever I need it and I am part of that support system for others whenever they need it (this is my nod to 7 very special people!).
I am so blessed to have this life that I have. It is not perfect, it’s neither what I envisioned nor what I would have planned for myself but that’s ok. I may get down at times, and that is fair as long as when I am down I remember the phrase “you can only go up from here”. I will work hard to fight my way back up, for myself, my family, my friends and my fans.
My blog question for all of you is:
WHO OR WHAT INSPIRES YOU? When you are in your darkest hour where do you pull your inspiration from?
Thank you for your patience & your anticipated forgiveness!
I wish you all good health & pain free days!
Peace & Paw Prints!
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